So I'm back and let me just say...having my nursing license and being OFFICIAL is really a great feeling. Even though I have no job to use it with yet I am still totally excited!

Kassandra Wilka RN, BSN. That has a great ring to it if I do say so myself. =]

Look me up RN163563

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I passed....

OH WOW!!!

It doesn't feel real at this moment but I'll let you know when it does.

Kassandra Wilka RN, BSN...weird

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I find out tomorrow...OH GOODNESS.

I'm so nervous.

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So...took the NCLEX today and felt very blah for most of the day. I finished in about 2 hours and was only given 75 questions. Totally not what I expected. I figured that I'd get more than that for sure, especially since the standard was raised for passing standard. I dunno...so I came home and laid around for the whole day for sure. Watched Gilmore Girls, ate Eegees, watched more GG, ate dinner, watched I love you man with my mom and now it's bed time.

It's been such a day. I'm just nervous cause I didn't know the answer to the first question and after that I felt like I wasn't doing well even though I pushed that put of my brain til the exam kicked me off. It's just a weird feeling. I am completely not sure if I was getting passing level questions or failing level questions cause at the end of the day and at the end of Kaplan, they all feel the same to me. Decision Tree or not, they feel all the same to me. I do know however that I was on a roll of either passing or failing cause the computer didn't have to think about what question to give me next, it just gave one to me.

I'm a jumble of mush and I get my unofficial results on Thursday for $7.95 via the internet or I can wait approximately 4 weeks for the AZ BON to declare me "pass/fail". I want to know, but then again, I don't. I'll probably cave and pay the eight bucks to see my "unofficial" results cause I am curious but it could be disappointing. Who flippin knows.

I'm babbling.

I thank Anthony for studying with me, Beck for the card, Jamie for calling me last night and Laura O for calling me today to remind me that I am smart and that it's gonna be good and thanks to all the peeps on FB for the massive encouragement. It really does mean a lot.

Hopefully Thursday brings good news.

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Kassie

I take my boards tomorrow...and I actually feel ready. I am not nervous for the test but more so that I am the first person to take it. The good thing about that is, I can go in clear headed and know that no one before me has passed or failed and they did this or that or whatever. The bad thing of that is, people will be asking about the exam. Which truthfully doesn't bother me. I will have only a limited amount of information to give everyone. However, I am happy to share what info I get.

I posted an inspirational message on facebook, to remind myself and to remind everyone else of what we have accomplished. Here it is: To all my nurses taking NCLEX: Don't fret and don't fear. Remember we were trained for the last 2.5/3 years to become nurses and majority of us tookKaplan. Kaplan says if we do all they say we'll pass or our money back. Would they really say that if they were not confident in their program? NO! We are all going to do great. Just remember to breathe and take your time. SI SE PUEDE!!!!!!

I hope this makes everyone (or just Laura) feel better about NCLEX. It helped me remember that it is going to be alright and to help me be confident.

I love you all...and I'll fill you all in at a later date!

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Kassie

I just discovered I get heat rashes.

Heat rashes, like the ones babies get that look like mini patches of small white head pimples.

I've never gotten one until last summer and then nothing and now...here it is again.

Still no word on the job front. It's being postponed though until I get my boards out of the way, which is happening on June 15th. Eeeeeeeeek...here's to hoping I pass.

Time to shower and sleep for tomorrow is another day of studying. Bleh.

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Updates to my life:
After spring break everything went crazy as my group and I tried to finish up our projects and et ready for graduation. I started to get really upset, especially after everyone got hired at FMC. No one wanted to even consider me for a job cause I'm a new grad and I kept getting rejection after rejection. It truly made me want to cry. Then on that same day, hope came knocking, I got an email from Seton asking me some questions about working and before I knew it I was routed to 3 hospitals and a clinic in Austin. I hope this means good news for me. I hope I get a job in Texas.

For now though, I am home and on some days I love it and others I want to rip my own head off. My family loves each other very much, don't get me wrong, but some days I just want to...well, I'll leave it at that.

I miss everyone from school. I miss Sara and Jamie. I miss all my nursing girls. I just miss school in general. Not the learning part, but the independence part. I really struggle with the whole "being an independent adult" bit when I am home.

Back to cleaning and packing my life away. I have so much stuff and I'm not quite sure what to do with it all. Studying starts Monday. Here's to passing my NCLEX!

Toodles,

Kassie