I still can't believe it...
I sat there and watched my patient's heart rate climb in to the 150's and 160's at times, and I didn't do anything. I just sat there and watched it happen like nothing was wrong. That can't happen ever, and I let it happen.
And of course when you try and talk about it with someone you hope will at least try to make you feel better, they completely fail and make you feel worse.
I just don't know if I should be allowed to be a nurse. Who would ever allow me, to be a nurse, if I can't even let someone know that my patient's heart rate is too high.
I just don't know about anything anymore.
Okay Missy,
ReplyDeleteThese blog posts are too depressing. How about we write about the things we did correctly during our clinicals this week. I know we need to remember and learn from our mistakes but we ALL make mistakes. You know this. And as Donna McQuain would say, nurses never make the same mistake twice. So you didn't recognize the elevated HR? You can't change that now. So focus on what you learned from the experience.
I know that you are going to be a great nurse. I know this because it means so much to you and because you take it so personally when something goes wrong. Sometimes crap just goes wrong. Your nurses has probably made a handful of mistakes herself. Whether she'll admit to them is a different story. Regardless, nobody is perfect. Be patient and take your time. NO BODY should ever make you feel dumb... especially you. You are learning! So perk up this week, lady!
PS: NO MORE NEGATIVE POSTS! Seriously. They make me want to cry. And pregnant women shouldn't cry because they become virutally inconsolable!
-Laura
Thanks Laura!
ReplyDeleteThis was just a weak moment in my preceptorship. =[ but all is well now.
I MISS YOUR LOVELY FACE!
Also, I agree with your PS, pregnant women become inconsolable when they cry. Which makes me sad, so in turn, I will stop making you sad. =]